I have been struggling since I remember last…. How so ever hard I could try to recollect my memories.. I met this friend of mine some time back (ok.. 4 months back.. I was only trying to make it look like a nice story plot… but you ppl.. Com’on stop raising eyes..) and while talking to him, he started with his usual ups and downs of life… and like all human’s innate characteristic he too started with the Downs.. And only after I got tired and started bleeding through my ears, I finally had to stop him saying I needed to go to washroom.. ( sorry, I know it was the lamest excuse but after bearing non-stop hitting of the most uncommon negative thoughts any human brain can inhabit in it..this was more like much needed life for me… ) now the point is.. After listening to him I actually went to rest room to make sure I have nothing of “negativity” left in me.. Because as per my reputation I can’t afford to risk my rapport by having even the “x -> 0″ where “x” is the counter part of my happy self… (x -> 0, remember Limits and Differentiation in pre-university courses.. My favorite part of calculus. ).. Now what made me write this blog was the curiosity that I dwelled in me about why would some one be sad or demotivated, if we can put it this way…
Once my dad told me “do your best and then improve your deliverable of the BEST and keep doing so”… he never mentioned to me about anything that would even remotely meant or sensed as “Failure”… believe me this is no Geeta Saar that I am reiterating here… where you don’t worry about the result…. You think you won’t worry about result??… You would… and if you don’t.. Then you are not the one to read this blog 
…. On serious notes, all my dad wanted to tell me was…. Once you are done with effort for the current cycle.. Make sure you find some area of improvement and then work to fill that gap… now imagine an effort that falls at wrong place and unlike Lord Krishna or The Arjuna.. You do worry about Result.. What would a failed attempt educe in you… two possible emotions… (as they were for me till I focused on the last one only)
- Why me…?? And exaggerating this to “Oh Almighty, why me.. Why only me.. Why again.. I am such a @#$@3 @#$@”
- Ok!! Lets deal now… (no.. I am not exaggerating this one.. This is mine ok!!!!!!! And I am, ummm ummm, a narcissist.. )
Why would I tell you all this.. And why would I expect you to go further reading this whole.. I don’t know.. May be you need to just see that when one can deal with any CALAMITY… OMG.. What a huge huge word.. Ok .. Lets keep it plain.. See friend, my point is when you have a possible (even if chances are far lesser than worth the thought) roadway to tackle tough times then why not give it a try… after all someone said once “When you have lost everything you are free to do anything”… See I am no preacher who has figured out the True meaning of life and nor do I want to be a saint in the Himalayas of India… all I want is to tell you.. That never ever get yourself in the black-hole of “Why me??” syndrome.. WHY??? I am not sharing the gyan that I have assembled mediating in deep resonance of my thoughts and mind.. No way.. I better booze during the meditation time.. That anyways keep me in complete resonance with my thoughts and motions … Its very basic involuntary action of human body that the moment you see the failure, you ask “why” and this why can be then added to “me..again..and etc..” and then….
From one why me.. We can recollect so many of such instances which would only staunched any possibility of hope.. From one failure, you better believe me, we all have the talent to dig out many more such failures…that’s the universal law of addition which would never fail… and while I truly believe in “Secret” that one creates one’s universe by one’s thought…I admit its not really as easy as said…but surely worth the try…so after keying in so much… all I request to everyone is to see the positive side of all the things… and if not succeeding then at least keep trying… nothing is impossible in this world where we watch Surrogate and claim that its very much in near future… Agreed that toughest thing to control is your thoughts but imagine the game if you learn how to steer through the race court of your life canvas…
And finally jumping to first two line of this blog… I still need a reason worth enough to be SAD… a bad interview, a broken relationship, a lost job, blah blah would never be a reason.. As life extends beyond all such things… just keep yourself in right mode and keep cleaning the mirage of corrupt thoughts… and you will be there at the right place on the right time…
Like my Prof said to all of us.. “May God be with you”
Cheers
Loku
PS: you really need not look for a rationale of me blogging.. It’s a exercise I do to keep myself contained…
